undertaker

"i know soul come out from body(die) is very hurt"
It's not true; some souls may leave their bodies in a peaceful way.
"what i will be and what i become?"
Fear of the unknown is unnecessary; you're just going to another dimension without your physical body.
"and lost everything i have on this moment, home , family, friend and everything i love!!"
You don't lose anything because you actually brought nothing into this world and you also won't bring anything out when you leave. Humans are just visitors on earth.